A new poem or two will be up soon... I promise.
3:24 PM, Thursday, January 15
As promised, a new poem! Tell me what you think.
pocketwatch
by hannah sassaman
i remembered your pocketwatch
last, the glint of yellow lamplight
as you glanced at it, before
shutting the swollen door.
you owned me as honestly
as your watch, and i felt
as smooth against the palm
of your hand as that warm metal,
bound to you by the same delicate chain.
i told something even simpler than
the time, something that didn't change
or darken with the seasons of the year.
how disappointed you were that
i couldn't be reset, though i felt
the tightness of your fingers
fumbling at the broken switch.
April 24... what time IS it??
Here's another poem:
I Am Roughly Familiar
I am roughly familiar with
The work of G-d.
I have seen His trees and
Some of His mountains.
When sleeping at the wheel, I
Felt the gentle pull of
Two fingers at my chin, where
My head met my neck in
A low grumble.
I am roughly familiar with
The work of G-d.
Sunday, May 10, 11:10 PM
A new poem:
thanks
thank you for smoothing
your hands. your palms
were rough and heavy
and your fingers hard
with writing callus.
thank you for swallowing
your silent question and
soaking your hands in
my perfumed lotion.
later, i wondered myself.
it seemed as if my own
fingers were touching me,
without the distinction of
your nails tracing their
scratch-pattern on my skin.
what is smoothness but
a lack of distinction,
love without signature pain?
still, you smoothed away
your character without a
question. many thanks.
Sunday, May 24, 11:50 PM
Well, I'm in Rochester for a few weeks before I return to Philadelphia to
work for the summer. I've had a good amount of time to write. What do
y'all think?
knot
who can knot
hair like night?
(she knows that
girl-children long
for smoothness,
neatness. she
ties my hair in
wet plaits. the
tight curls quiet
their insistency
under the tapestry of
night-black braids.)
July 15, 1998... 6:10 pm, according to my watch, NOT the
untrustworthy computerclocks in the Van Pelt Library Lab!!
Okay, I'm over that. But REALLY, all the computers in this school give
you the wrong time. Grr.
Here's a slightly controversial one I've been working on...
cinderella
i imagine cinderella and her
stepsisters as the subject
of a tabloid fairy tale, steeped
in salt-juiciness -- local girl
makes good, bangs the prince
and wins a lottery of silks
and impossible glass slippers.
page six: sisters steamed.
tragic accident of turtledoves
and branches outside the
palace. exclusive photos.
of course, the tragedy lies
with the eldest stepsister --
searching in the cinders for
rotten lentils still, months
into cinderella's apple-ripe
fecundity with her sun-browned
prince. men came by, yes.
don't they always believe that
money falls into family laps?
the girl remembers one in
a rush of blurred rough cloth,
a merchant of something or
other who took her into the kitchen,
sexing her in methods very
different from a barefoot palace ball.
of course, our cinderella earned
her fairy godmothership as well.
those aprons, black-rag corsets
fitting tightly, cindermarks of ash
on sculpted legs. the older daughter
saw a field of stubble on the fairy's
face. who knew what really happened
as the family went shopping at the mall?
the girl suspected over tea and scones
the next day at the palace. she's too ripe,
the pregnancy too blossoming. of course,
the girl considered, she would screw a fairy too
-- if granted the oblivion of happy ever after.
Wednesday, July 29, 1998
5:40 PM
Philadelphia is hot. So, I cut my hair
incredibly
short on Monday. Then, I wrote a poem about it. Here it is:
HAIRCUT
For those trying this at home, remember:
the china doll stylist won't believe you.
Show her the tomboy, short-cut in the slick magazine.
Grin, as if a yellow smile pointed at mascara-lined eyes
could win you this woman's favors.
Remember too the intimacy of shampoo:
fingertips to scalp, a blending of oils and water.
You feel vaguely like a cigarette
as you are led, dripping, to the metal chair.
You carry regret in your purse like birth control,
but wisely keep it pocketed as the fragrant
foot-long licks of brown fall to the floor.
It's probably best to imagine you feel lighter as you listen
to a conversation between dead cells and sterling scissors.
Promise you won't look until she's finished,
but run your fingers, wet along a wet scalp,
as she turns to choose a bottle of pomade:
the length and texture mutable and loose,
like love half done.
November 7, 1998
7:56 PM
Waiting until the end of my shift before I go to a party with my newly
baked apple pie...
I work at the Writer's
House here at Penn, and I was unlucky enough to pull this week's
Saturday 6-12 shift! Aaa! So, I'm biding my time until closing by
editing my homepage. Some more poems for you:
LESSON
Yah yauh yaugh yaw. The difference
An opening, a lift at the back
Of the throat. Large enough
To melt a sugar cube, she says.
So the back of a spoon could sit
On your tongue and still rim
Your bottom teeth, the voice teacher
Says. Or two fingers, she says.
So your jaw falls almost slack.
Yah. Yauh. Yaugh.
Sonnet on a Reading of Jane Eyre
The dour and poor deserve a chance, and Jane's
Not bad, a little tight, a little small
For Rochester, malevolent and plain.
The setting fits the girl, but all in all,
She pleases me, the nascent growth within
Of objectivity, the graceless charm
Of linen gloves in barter for a sin.
I see the couple still: they're arm in arm,
Though blind, he still insists on leading her
Into the house. It's here I know that love
Is power: Jane the eyes, and Rochester
The virile puppet. Charlotte knew: above
The rest, her story was controlled: complete
Because a triumph rots when over-sweet.
December 28, 12:59 AM -- Home for Break
So -- after another semester of deliberate sabotage to my grades, my job,
my friends, and my emotional well-being (it's not really that bad,
but a night of television and The Best American Short Stories of
1998 has depressed me considerably) I am home for a week of
reflection, and, a bit of writing. Here's a selection based on growing
up with my darling twin sister, Esther:
TWINS
I remember us together at the mirror,
Two pink blurs winged by brown hair,
Both of us blind without glasses,
Both of us parted white without a comb.
I remember the weight of the toothbrush,
The grit of the paste on the bristles
I remember talk from the throat
Through plastic on teeth and mint foam.
Two sinks, four hands on cold oval porcelain,
Two steel faucets polished to distortion,
One image by a chipped white door,
One in front of a shower and toilet.
I remember our mutual dread of school, but
How the minutes at the mirror still were minutes.
I remember shedding clothes until we were both naked,
Hairless, lipped, waiting for the shower.
Another Poem For You.
Thursday, January 7, 1999, 2:29 PM Skies are sunny, air is cold.
Here's one I wrote last night after enjoying some girly alcohol (a few
bottles of kiwi-strawberry wine coolers). Some friends and I were staying
up all night to send off our friend Brooke, who is going to France
for a semester to study... French, I suppose, and international
relations. She'll be living with a 20 year old French boy and his
mom. Whoo! Anyway, we stayed up late and I got up less than an hour
ago. Here's the poem -- I always wax religious when under the
influence:
I SAT WITH A LITURGY IN THE GRASS
Meaning I sat worded and
Shaded, prepared to enter the
Ritual, the prayer tongued,
God worded for page and voice,
But instead of lisping or lilting
The praise as best I could, I
Sat still in the prickled stalks,
The night blowing soft breath
And mosquitoes upon me.
May 1, 6:30 AM
In a writing frenzy. Writing letters, pieces of my play, explanations of
pieces of my play which will prove valuable when I have to make it a
thesis, whooo. Here's a small poem I wrote and don't think I like or
understand:
AMERICA
America isn't color. I've seen hands
Stained with ink, I promise you that.
Ink is blue, and it's too dark
To show black or yellow or red or white .
Boy, this country is done in ink.
Look at the maps.
All the things we believe in,
Like borders and roads,
And democracy,
Are done in blue ink.
There is no such thing
As an invisible man.
Maybe he's just soaked to the core
In invisible ink.
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